Contrasts

Days are long...
Nights short.
My heart is heavy ...
My spirit light.
My eyes are dull...
My complexion bright.

Hopes are dead...
Yet, fears alive.
My soul is starving...
While my ghosts thrive.

Where am I headed ?
Am I lost..
Or found...?

Blasphemous, I don't want to be called 
And fear for my end.
Which will take me...
Under ground !!

"Happy Birthday to Me"

Another year lived !!
Another one begins !!
The journey of life is
Passing at a surreal pace..
It was just yesterday,
That I was a little girl...
Ridding the wind on my
Unseen wings !!

Sunday

Silent Sunday,
Passing by !!
Looking out the window,
Thinking about the past.
Seeing the future,
In my children's eyes.
Hoping for all things good,
Praying for all things good.

Let's see what the busy Monday will bring.

Baby's First Football

On Super Bowl Sunday, while the kids were rooting for Green Bay Packers, I sat knitting a cool football for a fellow Etsian , http://www.etsy.com/shop/NattyKnits . You can even visit her blog here: http://nattyknitter.wordpress.com/

She wanted someone to try out her "Baby's First Football" pattern and I volunteered.
It was a fun experience, I've had limited experience with contour knitting and this was really a great learning experience for me.

Later in the evening, as the Packers were winning, my kids too started playing with the recently knitted ball. It's not their "First Football", but it sure is their "First Knitted Football".

Now looking at the ball I think I should have added a few more white stitches......Maybe next time !!!
: )

Got inspired by christmas !!

Totally got inspired by christmas......

The Yin and Yang Mittens.....

The three D ........yummy strawberry

It is hanging in my kitchen.....looks really neat.

the angora sweater

fingerless mittens !!

A bracelet...knitted in moss stitch !!

Socks for christmas

A sweater for my sweet son....

First Time in my Life I knit for myself !!!

You'll Always Live in my Heart

My tears will dry

My smiles will return

One day I will laugh loudly again

I will dance too some day

Maybe will sing a merry song

Life will go on

Things will settle down once more

But the ache in my heart

That your leaving has left behind

Will be in me forever

Behind every smile will be ..

A silent prayer for you !!

Dadi Aman (Paternal Grandma)

I will miss you.........forever,

I guess I'm saying Goodbye !!

You know I love you and will love you till my dying breath.

Be safe and happy in your afterlife...be yourself and you'll be fine!

I hope and pray that after I've shared all the stories you told me,

With my grandkids, I'll meet you in heaven one day !!

Thank you for all your love, I have it with me even now.

I'll have it forever......

You were my one true friend, the one who loved me unconditionally.

I will miss your voice, your advice and your prayers too.

My loss is great but my hope is greater !!

I'm hopeful that where ever you are you'll be fine and happy.

May all your kindness, your faith and forbearance take you to the seventh sky.

You were, are and forever will be my torch bearer as,

I navigate my own treacherous life's unpredictable path.

Dadi Aman I love you........

Suddenly I'm not who I was,

Lost, lost and lost I am..

My overrated self esteem is gone !!

I'm nobody's darling,

I own no one...

Alone in a family of strangers,

I find myself ...

No one is the same , no one recognizable...

Hidden agendas, open scorn

Is all I feel and see all around !!

Was it worth it,

The sacrifice , the loving giving??

Was it at all worth it !!???

The peace sign hat ,,,lilac

The tiny knitted stocking !!

Death !!

It is here,

It came knocking on the door

Dark, dense and seriously serious,

Death is paying a visit here

Life is struggling in his presence,

She is scared, silent and waiting

Wandering death has wandered here,

Near a bed where life does dwell

Sickness was not know here before,

But the last few days have seen it all!

Death has come sneaking in,

Looking, smelling, judging still !!

Life is scared but won't give hold..

Holding on to the last,dying breath..

Death is stronger, will eventually win !!

But for tonight the silent fight is on,

Life and death will so go on !!