Friday, July 18, 2014

Human History is as appalling as the current times......


 Wow, they say these are bad times... I am pretty sure they were saying the same when Haluko Khan came roaring down the mountains....bad times!!! Stay indoors at all times walay times.

 Human history is full of bad times...from the incident between Kane and Abel all the way down to Jack the ripper and Nawaz Sharif. Blood baths have spilled in the name of religion and atrocities have been comitted in the name of freedom......... I think it all is prompted by the innate need of man to control something, at any cost, (whatever he can get his hands on).  It may just be his small personal domain within his house or if he has somehow fooled people into letting him lead them, his clan or country.In the meantime whoever losses a limb or a life for him is mere collateral damage as far as the eternal leader (man) is concerned. I mean Is tarah tou hota hai is tarah kay kamon main.

 Why is this so, you may ask (maybe you won't ask but I will tell u anyways)? Waiasay bhi WHY is my favorite question (Haina Papa?).... Why did Halaku khan burn the libraries or used books to make bridges in Baghdad (Maybe he was jealous because he had no books)? Why did Alexander not stop before all his Army including him was perished (Maybe he wasn't God after all)? Why did Tipu Sultan's Mamu open the gates to the enemy (This one is easy, lalchi tha)? Why did Hitler let himself lose on the Jews (Still thinking , thniking......thinking)? Why did the Japs attack Pearl Harbour (Maybe they were tired of playing war war)? Why are the Jews punishing Palestinians for Hitlers crimes (This I know for sure is because they are just mean and badatameez)? Why did the Jews leave their house in the first place (Did we ask them to?). By the way why are they behaving just like Hitler nowadays (I mean eradicating a whole race because they are sitting on prime land)? Wow, us Muslims ladies love discussing Jews.......phew !!!

 Please, do not read between the lines here, I never took history in school and now I am teaching Egyptian history to middle schoolers in Pakistan.........so I am no authority on anything I am writing about. These are just rambles of a woman living during bad times. But weren't all the above mentioned times bad times for the mothers losing their sons,despite their religious beliefs, to make the random, unsure, perverted,sick, half cooked dreams of their leaders come true.....!! I mean who was Hitler to kill Jew, Christian, Black or White population ( someone's child)
(Personal glory is the answer as far as I am concerened..........that is all......)

 So, back to the bad times !! They say these are bad times for the Islamic Ummah..............hunm remind me please when were the good times???? From Karbala on wards I do not think there ever were any times that were totally good for the Ummah on the whole......Complete peace?never ever heard of it ......Please, give me a window of at least a 100 years where Muslims were not being oppressed or were not the conquerors?? In one way or the other there was always fighting, anarchy, unrest and chaos within the Ummah........Bad times? Now??? Hunm !! If you say so !!!

Eastern times or Western times, at their best, were and are usually bad, so why fret ......Let the bad times RULE ............if for nothing else then only for nostalgic reasons !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: All the puns were very much intended......





Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Contrasts

Days are long...
Nights short.
My heart is heavy ...
My spirit light.
My eyes are dull...
My complexion bright.

Hopes are dead...
Yet, fears alive.
My soul is starving...
While my ghosts thrive.

Where am I headed ?
Am I lost..
Or found...?

Blasphemous, I don't want to be called 
And fear for my end.
Which will take me...
Under ground !!



Wednesday, April 2, 2014

"Happy Birthday to Me"



Another year lived !!
Another one begins !!
The journey of life is
Passing at a surreal pace..
It was just yesterday,
That I was a little girl...
Ridding the wind on my
Unseen wings !!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Sunday

Silent Sunday,
Passing by !!
Looking out the window,
Thinking about the past.
Seeing the future,
In my children's eyes.
Hoping for all things good,
Praying for all things good.

Let's see what the busy Monday will bring.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Baby's First Football

On Super Bowl Sunday, while the kids were rooting for Green Bay Packers, I sat knitting a cool football for a fellow Etsian , http://www.etsy.com/shop/NattyKnits . You can even visit her blog here: http://nattyknitter.wordpress.com/

She wanted someone to try out her "Baby's First Football" pattern and I volunteered.
It was a fun experience, I've had limited experience with contour knitting and this was really a great learning experience for me.

Later in the evening, as the Packers were winning, my kids too started playing with the recently knitted ball. It's not their "First Football", but it sure is their "First Knitted Football".


Now looking at the ball I think I should have added a few more white stitches......Maybe next time !!!
: )

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Got inspired by christmas !!



Totally got inspired by christmas......

The Yin and Yang Mittens.....

The three D ........yummy strawberry


It is hanging in my kitchen.....looks really neat.

the angora sweater



fingerless mittens !!

A bracelet...knitted in moss stitch !!

Socks for christmas

A sweater for my sweet son....


First Time in my Life I knit for myself !!!


Monday, January 24, 2011

You'll Always Live in my Heart

My tears will dry
My smiles will return
One day I will laugh loudly again
I will dance too some day
Maybe will sing a merry song
Life will go on
Things will settle down once more

But the ache in my heart
That your leaving has left behind
Will be in me forever
Behind every smile will be ..
A silent prayer for you !!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Dadi Aman (Paternal Grandma)

I will miss you.........forever,
I guess I'm saying Goodbye !!
You know I love you and will love you till my dying breath.
Be safe and happy in your afterlife...be yourself and you'll be fine!
I hope and pray that after I've shared all the stories you told me,
With my grandkids, I'll meet you in heaven one day !!
Thank you for all your love, I have it with me even now.
I'll have it forever......
You were my one true friend, the one who loved me unconditionally.
I will miss your voice, your advice and your prayers too.
My loss is great but my hope is greater !!
I'm hopeful that where ever you are you'll be fine and happy.
May all your kindness, your faith and forbearance take you to the seventh sky.
You were, are and forever will be my torch bearer as,
I navigate my own treacherous life's unpredictable path.
Dadi Aman I love you........



Saturday, January 8, 2011

Suddenly I'm not who I was,
Lost, lost and lost I am..
My overrated self esteem is gone !!
I'm nobody's darling,
I own no one...
Alone in a family of strangers,
I find myself ...
No one is the same , no one recognizable...
Hidden agendas, open scorn
Is all I feel and see all around !!
Was it worth it,
The sacrifice , the loving giving??
Was it at all worth it !!???

The peace sign hat ,,,lilac

The tiny knitted stocking !!